29/11/09
Sunday Standard Chartered REPC was quite fun due to them motivating us to be high and teaching us a short dance. Got ourself high too by dancing to Nobody and then requesting them to play That Thing You Do where we dance too. Got home around 10plus and just chiong PM only. Hopefully will come out what we predicted.

30/11/09
Happy Birthday Zhong Rong!

PM test was quite ok, about half the questions predicted came out. Pray can get 70 and above. Lesson in the afternoon cancelled, lecturer mc as usual.  Went to clubhouse to do DEC n PM assignment 1. Went home around 4plus. Totally tired from last night. Slept the whole evening. Currently don't know what to do, just don't feel like doing anything.

1 test down, 2 to go for the week!

Slight headache from yesterday. Went down for Standard Chartered event. Assigned to counter crew, quite a ok job, passing race pack to racers. Dinner was fine, got anderson ice cream too. T-shirt nothing special, quite simple, hopefully can get the New Balance race singlet. Took 196 to commonwealth change bus. Had a good chat with larry. =) Thanks man.

Fear.
Refer to 'other' for details.

Low mood, quite low, very low. Cant even study for my test. Thanks to chwen, steve and jason for coming out accompanying me at late notice, great buddies indeed. Drank like it was in the past. Watch a late movie, Ninja Assassin, very bloody, not for those who cant take blood, thats why M18. Then went to pub drank till our fill, sang at the open area. Hope to have another session next time. Thanks guys. Cab home.

Tml and Sunday helping out at Standard Chartered, hopefully can wake up, kinda having headache at the moment, but still sober.

Hope things turn out fine quickly...

Learning how to adapt, not to put down.
Accept how it is, not changing it.
Believing in our self, never doubt one bit.
Knowing the limits, not overlook it.
Predict what is ahead, not lagging behind.
Chance to take when needed, back out when is getting risky.
Overcome one self, before overcoming others.
Realizing it, attend to it promptly.
Be positive, negativism won't get one anywhere.

Live life to the max.

Feeling a tad nervous now, tml gonna be the day of competition. Hoping to win the gold, for mde, for the team, for my friends! =)  Good luck to the mde allstars team!(basketball n soccer)

Maybe
By Jay Sean

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again Im Just Hoping Its A Text From You

(Bridge)
It Aint Right i read your Messages Twice thrice
Four Times A Night Its True
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance That you're
Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadn't Said

(Verse 2)
I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On *Facebook* All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile
just cant help wondering why
you play it cool but see
im hopelessly falling for you

*every nite on my phone i
flirt with you
and i know you like it girl
all jokin aside
what say you and i
come out and say what were trying to hide *

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Words We Both Hadn't Said

*like i really want you
i think i need you
baby i miss you
im thinking of you* (*2)

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Words We Both Hadn't Said (*2)

maybe it is true
im caught up on you
maybe i am wrong
baby i miss you

With my tired body, i have to force myself to SSS early in the morning. Today got Timekeeper instead which is like gg, cos im gonna fall asleep even more! Lunch time lepak at causway point again, boring! Then went back early this time, at the pool deck relax awhile. Just nice the Japanese Team was coming for warm-up. Took a pic with them! woots! Evening event was much more exciting as it is the last race and last leg of this year series. In total 4 world records were broken in SG! Cool eh. Went to eat with gloria, leon, liangyu, priscilla, qiaoyi n mengkeat at northpoint after the event.

Home sweet home.. finally can have a rest...but still got stuffs to settle...

Break time went to SP with zal n meng to eat and walk around. Evening time went to SSS briefing and to collect uniform and accreditation card for sat n sun event. Gonna be cui liao! Busy during the weekends, so gonna be 'away' from sch stuffs and other whatever things. lol

Damn stress and frustrated!

Happy Birthday Lingli!

AT was good, manage to do. BIS test was average, got 72/100, didn't study though. Supported ky n nicholas I&E, most of the class bought and first class to get their delivery service! haha. Celebrated lingli bday after sch then accompany huiping to clubhouse to find larry. Went to kfc to eat with both of them n axel. So many things to do, so stress!!!

Leonids Meteor showers later at 3am-5am. Wonder if i can catch it?

From 0000 to 1001,
sudden change to 1010,
hoping it will become 0110
and not turn out to be 0010 or 0001.
1100 will be worse, 0011 will be unthinkable.
Binary numbers are just so complicated.

Went to sports school today for the FINA clinic. Had a free lunch which they provided and briefing last till like 3plus. After which went to causway toastbox to eat with gloria, liang yu and priscilla. Then we made our way to amk hub, pris wanted to get alot of stuffs. First stop at Face Shop. They all bought nail polish while i become their tester! Clean away the rest, leaving the above one, gold in color! haha. Then bought durian pancakes, tempting! Go Fairprice where they buy their grocery then off to food court to have dinner! Haha. Whole day eat only. After that went home liao. On mrt slept, almost forgot to alight, later don't know, trip back to marina bay! lols.

Weirder and weirder...

"A little more persistence, a little more effort, and what seemed hopeless failure may turn to glorious success."

Feel tired today, due to a lack of sleep ba. Thanks gloria for the nice gift! Quite unique though, never see before. See i so good, put on handphone liao leh! haha. Went to MDE Bowling 2009, quite a good event, though there are some nervous moments but overall i will say its fine. Makan with hp, larry, shawn, clark, ky, ll, kevin & eugene at West Mall. Wanted to catch a movie after that but the queue is kinda long today. So lepak awhile before going home. Need a good rest for Dragonboat tml and sunday SWC rehearsal! Busy weekends ahead!

有些事很想说，但说不出来
储存在我的心, 觉得很痛苦
心里面很混淆 ，但还是想坚持下去

想要找一个答案，但不想知道结果。。。

Yesterday I&E went to Tekong! Go for sight seeing, experiencing the food, conditions. Looks fine though but don't know if they are just putting up a show. lol. No pics cause not allow to take. The pic above was taken from a random search in google off somebody's blog. It shows the buildings which is the bunk and the field for fall in i guess. Started the trip from around 11plus till 4plus there where we went back to school. Had dinner with shawn, ky, zal, kevin, jiaming n resha whom left after eating. The few of us lepak at KFC and chat for like 3 hours? lols before going home.

Tired and sick...

Presentation today was great, we got back on track, done pretty well. Hope to keep up with it. Went home after school then go swimming and met coach discuss his website. U must be thinking im crazy eh, sick still go swim...well im crazy...Drove coach car for a short distance, totally shiok! Modified manual car, totally hard to drive sia but fun man! Tml bowling day and its like gonna be my first emcee-ing since a long time. Hope to do well.

Still sick but mood feeling better... :)


"You never realize what kind of love you have, until you almost walk away from it; then it may be too late."

Today just feeling low. Wasn't feeling well at first, probably due to lack of sleep ba. AT topic today cant understand or just totally cant absorb in thus circuit cant draw out, wiring cant do... :( Didn't go for running today too, went straight home to take my rest. Wanted to do some work but my body and mind just doesn't sync today...sigh...


"Sometimes is better to just leave it as it is and pretend it never had happen than saying it out and changing the whole situation, making it worse."

 Happy Birthday Weiting!

Sch was hectic as usual, well gotta cope with it. Help mend weijun dragon boat booth for awhile during break before going for lessons. Went to meet sec clique to celebrate weiting birthday. Go to kbox sing song, chat. Quite a eye opener for many cause its the first time we hear weiting sings and her voice is great too. Kinda recover my voice abit, able to sing back some of the songs i previously wasn't able to. Ate chips, junk food for dinner, what a unhealthy meal... Went home around 10plus.



 It just isn't getting better i guess?


"Sometimes you have to put walls around you; not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you."

Don't know why these few days feel abit gloomy. Maybe is sch work, maybe is the other stuff. Was hoping the time during the weekends will help me clear my thoughts, seems it doesn't really help much. Went out today with a few old friends, been some time since we met up. Shop around and had a chat. Hope to meet up soon.

Is it me or what?


"Staring into my phone wondering what is the best words to express how i feel but i couldn't find one not because i can't write but is because there is no words to describe how i feel inside."

 Happy 18th Birthday Larry!
End of 3rd week, so many things piled up! PM presentation was totally cui due to our slackness. Gotta work extra hard for next week. I&E work beginning to come in hard, hopefully everything will work well. Celebrated larry's birthday earlier, pity him, have to endure all our madness! Haha. I guess this once in a year experience worthy.

 Going crazy every day on everything!!! Burning out very fast...damn tired...

"A person who gives ideas is a crank until his ideas succeed."

In the middle of 3rd week of school... More cui i guess. Works are piling up. Went to sign up for sports camp GL earlier with a few of ex-pinata's SLs. lol. Had dinner with zal n meng, had a interesting encounter at clementi's Long John Silver... Don't know is funny or what but it sure leave us an weird impression there.

Wish to settle the stuff quickly...



"Wants to do something but doesn't want to wreck something... but if i don't do it, i don't want to regret not doing it."

Today went to Pulau Ubin with clark, shawn, xilin, huiping, lingli, larry, siyao to check out for their event. Suppose to leave for changi from tampines at 1pm but due to many lateness, therefore delay till like 3pm where we reach ubin. Trek to Chek Jawa, the intended destination for about 45mins and upon reaching there, the sight is so beautiful, so nature, so relaxing. Pictures will be at facebook. Admiring the peaceful scenery, the sea view, hearing the breeze, a nice place to chill and take a break away from city life. If everyday is like that, i would love it.

Took some time to relax at the wetlands bridge area, looking into the open sea, sky, helps me sort my thoughts out and maybe got an answer. If only i had scream my problems out, thought that will be disturbing the nature. Went back to mainland around 6pm and ate at Changi Village. Had a wonderful dinner, got stingray, gonggong, oyster omelette, 3 diff drinks, nasi lemak. If everyday eat like that how shiok is it. haha. Ate till 9pm before taking the long train back.


"wishes there was a rewind button, then i could be with you."