Weird...i forgot what i wanted to blog liao now. Let me think awhile first...

I guess i feel so free now. All is out and settled i guess. What an interesting week it has been. So many events unfold in front of me, regardless of good or bad. Can say i got over it though some still lingers inside me but dont need to worry, im fine. There are happy events though, elearning is over and it sucks by the way. Siyao is progressing well with his relationship and wish him all the best!^^

I guess i can say that is the pattern of F01? Is like first sem ben got gf, then 2nd sem guan's turn. Nw i think is siyao? So i guess is either me, meng, rizal or matt turn nxt sem? haha.. Such a logic i can also think of, lol.


Pic of my phone! haha. more colourful now isnt it. Bought the blue star from siyao while the yellow star from nicholas. Help them to buy cos for charity. And it looks nice too! =D

Why i keep forgetting what to write sia?? Hmm... Kinda been neglecting my studies abit, need to quickly catch up cos i fear for my CT! Some things im not sure if i should write it out now. Well, i guess i keep it inside me for awhile ba. Anyway i got registered into the AYG(Asian Youth Games) and will be helping out from 2nd to 6th July in the swimming event! That means 3 days not going to sch, got excused! Also registered for the MDE dance team for NP ndp celebration party and will be dancing i guess? Will need a partner though if it is a pair dance. Gotta come back on the 16, 23 n 25 June. At least holidays got something to do.

WHO WANT TO BE MY DANCE PARTNER? lols.

Ends here nw, gonna mug for the 1 week for CT! Anyone got things to say to me juz say ba, i ok de. :)

Mind wandering abt now. Do i have a change of feeling? idk but better not? seriously i dont know myself these few days. And i feel angry over something which i feel that why is it like that or is it i dunno that it is ardy comforted... watever...

Updates!

Finally did my video learning on youtube for em3b, nw left tutorial n ca tutorial. Went to grandma house then watch boys over flowers. Nw no mood to do work, so juz watch lor.

Haiz, if only things were that simple...

today blog late cos watching a show and thinking of what to post. So is like woke up late so went to meet them like 11am. Then did pmr finish and SE. Nw left econs tut3 n em3b work!! Went for np strings then go running wif lingli n nicholas. Ran like 13 rounds then stop liao b4 going to market to eat. ELEARNING IS OVER AT LAST! hate it man!

Previous code too easy rite..nw i give something slightly challenging abit..hhaha.

Humans sometimes hate me, sometimes love me.
But they like the thing that i produce.
Collecting from every source i can find,
hardworking i am and bright color as the sun.
Who am I?

Find me in the same amount of letters as one part of Mona Lisa name.
One letter im part of in Leonardo Da Vinci.
Thomas Edison can be my granddad as i have Edison, my surname.
I can be related to Newton's Law of his name.
A christian i may be as im close to God.
Whats the word?

A common word everyone uses.
Daily, everytime, talk, sing or cheer
Used to describe a person like yourself.
A letter is the clue.
Whats my letter?

Every romantic movie must have, even comedy or action packed.
Found in most songs worldwide and lyrics too.
A common word used too often till it is misunderstood.
Used to describe a feeling for another person.
Name the word?

Not me, not they, not us, not we
Cant be him nor her.
Not an it as is not an animal.
A word which says the person while pointing the index finger.
what word am i?

Guess ardy can tell me! haha. awaiting the answer..

Tried to woke up early today but was quite difficult as the early morning i woke up to watch soccer and like got a few hours sleep only. So manage to force myself to wake up at 9am then reach sch like 10plus meet them study. Cleared my CA and after lunch cleared mol. After that didn really feel like doing anything liao. They went for dinner around 6plus while i go for my swimming. Wat a tiring day it is...


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A code which i did. Up to u whether u wan find out anot but is quite easy. I done much harder ones before! :)

Woke up late in the morning for my IS. So reached sch around 8.30 and lucky got a last lecture, presentation is after the break. Tried listening to the lecture but was very sleepy so keep dozing off even when watching the movie. Then presentation later was like panicky cos got a sudden blackout, forgot wat i wan to say. But manage to salvage it in time. Then lunch go meet siyao they all b4 going ourspace to do work. Did my SE finish and ca discussion board n econs quiz. After awhile was like no mood to do work liao so played many diff games.

Volunteered to help look after the bags of those runners as ourspace is too cold and want to relax somewhere. Reach sports hall realising got a soccer match, so like got entertainment. Then senghow was like blocking my view, say his back is the tv broadcast, front is the satellite! hahas! huiping, lingli, ziyi, karen, joanne, huey xian like run for a few rounds while senghow, nicholas n gloria ran abt 10 rounds plus. So went to eat at market later and is off to home.

So later is Man Utd vs Barcelona! Gonna watch, so shd be slping early tonite!

A part of a song i listen to and found the lyrics quite nice...

I see you girl at the other side
like i have known you for a long time, a long time
the time we spent together
your voice is all i hear, i feel

I sense for you to be by my side
hoping you will feel me in your heart, in your heart
time will said it all
if we will get together, be together

No matter how i tried
you will never see it right
No matter how the love
i will just be another guy
cause your heart is not inside of you, not a chance

No matter how i feel
you will never know the truth
No matter what you say
i will just fade away
hope you will find happiness, forget me
for i will be
your angel

so freaking tired for the day! force myself to wake up early and meet them like around 9plus.

Been doing work but like no use. Everything i want to try and do like sian sia. Even i think quite easy to clear one turn out to be quite hard too. Later went to makan place to eat at around 1pm. Eat yong tau fu at there while clark n huiping tapao for karen bak to our space. Notice the rain earlier had stop so easier to go bak. Got fed up with the SE elearning excel cos the last answer, payback period like keep doing cant get it right.

went to played soccer at 5plus and wah suay, injured my big toe and got internal bleeding! after that went to KAP to eat. now walking also quite painful.

funny...i forgot wat i want to blog about for this part...lol.

Cant woke up in the morning today so kinda meet the rest late at ourspace do homework. Then lunch time went to great world with huiping, jiaming and clark cos huiping wan to buy balloon there... So ate lunch b4 coming back to sch. Then kinda tried to do some work but was tired and doze off. Around 5.30 went for the carrot, egg n coffee talk. Kinda interesting but like not paying attention. Then went to makan place with siyao to do em3 n met hong zhen and ziyi there. So tried to do work there but was like joking n chatting away so didn't manage to do anything.

Now thinking of stupid stuffs... Was choosing between 2 options. What if i know her feelings, no matter is me or someone else, what would i do. If i don't know how her feelings is, i would feel so curious, so troubled inside. Haiz, caught in between. Don't know which is good or should i say, which one i wanted the most...

Sometimes i feel that im a bit basket/evil, thinking of other stupid things like who might like her, etc... jealous? think too much? lol.

By the way, aces video is on the way. Not sure when is it gonna be done but should be quite soon? See my schedule.

dunno wat to blog today...some random post ba. Woke up late today cos previous nite slept like 4plus cos talking to beeleng.

Afternoon juz watch tv and then went for driving at 4pm then help packet home dinner after lesson. No mood to do hmwk sia. Managed to finish mol only.

Hopefully mon onwards can focus!

Back from movie quite some time. Just that nw blog only.

So was like 1plus went to meet ky, zal n ck at cine then was like watch them eat lunch cos i eat at home ler. Then walk around awhile b4 going to play L4D nearby at the orchard plaza. After tat around 5plus go back cine buy tix while ck went home slp cos later he ton overnite for the cold storage kidz run. Then bought 5 tix cos scott n eugene coming later. Went to taka walk awhile b4 going to watch our movie. Was so damn funny la! kept on laughing! love the einstein n the cupids.

After movie walk to plaza singapura to makan then played arcade b4 going home cos quite late, scared no bus/mrt.

dont feel like slping nw...so active..

Happy Birthday Hong Zhen!

Went late for CA pract cos cant wake up! Then finish fast so had early lunch then go for pmr b4 using our lunch break to find ms neo for class diagram queries. Went econs class slack and then play dota...

After lessons went to LT51 there celebrate hong zhen bday. Standard SLs treatment, lol. Then i went off with nicholas to np strings. So met the rest for dinner afterwards.

elearning week nxt week so dont nid go sch but nid to do work. Going bak to study too, so no diff.

ah, today no emo-ing!! yes!

Took my em3 quiz in the morning and was like, wtf, hw to do some of the questions sia! In the end manage to do some but not sure whether correct anot. After em3, we(SHER or REMS?) went to makan place eat a little, tats why we go late for ca for abt half hr. Then go makan place eat again for lunch b4 going for pmr. Manage to complete 2 exercises today! yea. Then went to orchestra room to slack awhile b4 going makan place then i went off for swimming.

I guess everything is fine now though...gonna further it soon, asap.

Over slept for IS so like go late. Then like 1hr lecture before a 2 hr break to allow other groups to have their discussion. My group was like the last one so we went to 51 to discuss on final project. Then went back to say our speech before going off. So met siyao, ky, nicholas, meng, kevin for lunch then go library do maths b4 going mde office find mr tham for CA. After that go makan place continue do maths.

SO STRESS AH! so many work, then tml maths quiz! Tried doing the tutorial and can understand better liao, hopefully tml quiz can do. Totally burning out, getting tired..

No more emo post! lol.

Updates!
Found out something which kinda 'hurt' me. sigh. hard to resist this sad feeling now.

Sometimes keeping too many secrets is a problem. Very stress and pressured. Even my own stuff is another problem...

Happy birthday to weijun!

So today after my lessons rush to makan place in time to see the behind part of celebration. Saw larry bought him a condom and was like opening first pack to blow into a balloon and exploded! haha. 2nd one was suppose for him to put over his head but somehow broke so the ring on his head, the rest blow up a little and clip using the 'ring'. After that walk around makan place, he like so embarrassed la. After go blk 51 there find a lamp post, put a piece of cake into his underwear and ramp him. OUCH!

After that went west mall eat with ky, zhong rong, lingli, adrain, larry, gavin, wenhao n ck. Then decided to go arcade and saw a neoprint machine, so we went to take! haha. Pictures to be uploaded in afew days ba, nw with ky. He bringing home to cut and distribute tml ba.

Friendship is still the best, no matter wat differences, wat society, same crush. Friends come first other then the important family and girlfriend. So even if in future got such things, i believe the friendship will still be there and never to forget nor leave anyone behind.

Not emoing but i tink my heart is rite nw. Not gonna say, not gonna write...

ok. Guess it gonna be a boring post today i guess. Reason is i cant do emo stuffs now cos beeleng dont allow me too! lol.

Whole lessons today very damn tired, dunno why. Then 4plus went to play basketball. Injured my last finger and my left leg felt slight pain after jumping and landed abit awkward but can confirm is not broken bone. So went to mac eat as market is closed for washing.

Kinda a boring post and a short one too isnt it. End here today ba...

Been thinking what to blog today. Everytime blog about daily life stuff rather boring eh, some more no pics. So driving today learn the 3 point turn. So far my fourth lesson is going well. Gonna take my PT on 8 Sept! Met zal after my driving to do SE then dunno wat wrong with the library power sockets, all no power! Crap man! So use battery until he hungry then decided go IMM eat and then went to a corner in lvl 3 use the wall socket! lols! So went home after finishing what we needed to do.

Just finish my econs and em3b. Finally clearing up some stuffs. What a week it has been, so many things happen. I guess the omen is there and can say i kinda expected it. Just when i tot this is it and it came crashing down on me. Was like wondering, i can say it to a friend dont give up but when it is to happen on me, i kinda have the same feelings as him. Weird eh. All the craps that i have been talking doesnt seem to really apply to real life.

What a time to blog. Cant blame, came back like an hr ago. Afternoon went to meet ky to pass him my spare phone for awhile before go jamming with hz, ky, aiden, eugene, anwar, scot then agnes came later. anwar n aiden went off after jamming while we go to dhoby ghaut wanted to watch movie but there like got limited space and shows. Saw joanne n jiaying at Plaza Sing too. So we decided to go cini watch instead and bought the 9.40pm Angels n Demons. Went to eat Long John Silver, so long nvr eat liao! After that go play pool then slack awhile before going into cinema. Show lasted like 2 n a half hr, so ended like 12plus. Took night rider home nearby.

Today went to sch damn tired, guess not enough sleep. Then met ky, jiaming n clark halfway so like go buy coffee at makan place. And suay, kinda spill some coffee on my shirt while shaking. lunch was tabao as too crowded at makan place and went to blk 50 there eat as 02 were celebrating jia hui bday there. Then went for econs quiz and did quite ok. So went to canteen 1 to meet up the pinata's to give the freshies the photo of the camp. Then went off for NP Strings and like an hr later come back go makan at pizza hut!

Quite fun and played some games. Talk, sing n joke for some time b4 going back home.

Was like thinking about certain stuff and i considered for some time and decided that, my new decision will be better.

Today lesson was pretty fast as lecturers have to go to graduation ceremony. Then spend some time rushing off pmr work before meeting up the rest at makan place. Went off to SOE later for the competition and it is rather exciting. The way each contestant has their own style, their own support coming down give them flowers seem to be very nice. Was like imagining if it was to happen to me la! haha. Might be different though, come down give me flowers and instead of her going bak to the seat, i grab her hand for her to stay with me throughout the remaining of the song! lols! Cant blame me, thats what is my blog about, dreams! haha.

Then went to eat mac again and played game before realising it is too late liao! I was like 1 person at bus stop la, all go other side de. Sad sad, my side de all zao so fast.

Encounter a incident on bus in the morning. Saw something which might hurt my this close friend and i am not sure whether to tell him anot about it. Very frustrated, caught between 2 minds of keeping it till he found out himself to telling him myself.

So spent my IS lesson drawing about childhood stuff, a activity then play the wat drop a egg game, prevent the egg from breaking using watever resources we have. Then is watch movie time and have to do a movie review about it. So met the pinatas for lunch and off i went for my driving.

So drove around ubin then learn how to really use the handbrake start and reverse. Then went back to sch to meet them again and kinda like help them make the surprise for the freshman to be given on fri. Went off to play soccer later and kinda rusty, alot of stuffs cmi. Then meet up again for dinner before going home.

Tml nicholas gonna sing! Though competition seem to be stiff but i believe he can win! Believe in yourself, sing with confidence, feelings and there is a chance. How i wish i was the one singing, then i can dedicate the song to her...haha... Good luck tml!

Anyway, my blog gonna be 1 yr old soon! I hope before it turn 1 year old something nice will happen! Something different! Something more vibrant!

Today went sch feeling mood-less but thanks to great friends around me i feel better. Cant say that i really found out something but more like wondering whether these 'infos' i got are truth anot. Gonna find some time soon. Now just try to listen to lessons to get away from thoughts...

Sunday 10/05/09

Went for my second driving lesson in the morning yst. Amazing thing is i drove from clementi all the way to kallang the stadium there then drove back! Was so scared throughout the whole journey la. Scared of the cars behind me horn then like stalled the car 10 times most is when going off from a traffic light. Then went home to rush my hmwk. Did my SE project stuff finish then felt tired and doze off. Woke up around dinner time. Ate and do my econs at the same time but halfway i got stuck and dunno how to do ler. So went to do my em3 but did mol only...lols. No mood to do other stuffs liao. Watched my soccer match and the remaining of the night felt like doing nothing. Damn, homeworks sux! So many assignments cramp up together.

Had a mass chat with some freshies n some SLs inside. Talk abt lots of stuffs and was rather interesting. Went to talk abt relationships instead and like share our feelings out. So like chat till 12plus.

Monday 11/05/09

EM3 was like totally blur today, manage to understand abit of it. Nw having DBS..so boring but understand some stuffs. lol. Wonder what she is doing now...hmmm..

UPDATES!!!

So was like playing basketball around 4plus all the way till 8plus. Didn go for gym cos lazy ah and also dont have the sticker to go in cos i nvr go for orientation..lol..stupid idea of a sticker isnt it... Lazy to lie again each time i go in. Just want to vent my thoughts on the ball. Better if it is soccer where full energy can be used... Plan is almost ready. Should be able to take action soon.

Heard a news and i feel sad for larry. Had a chance but then a obstacle suddenly come along. So he feels like giving up and cant do much about it, is his decision. Just hope he can take it in his stride and just carry on with life as usual!

Meet up with ky n larry in the afternoon and walk around penisula before hong zhen, eugene and aiden come as they were jamming. Accompany them then went to bugis to meet axel. Eugene went off for work then went to yoshinoya eat abit before sight shopping at bugis street. Then larry had to go home for dinner. So we went off to sim lim square to check out repairs offers for kaiyang iphone and aiden bought stuffs for himself too.

Then aiden had to go to vivo while we went back to bugis street and really shop. hong zhen n ky bought clothes. I finally bought my shades! haha. Quite cheap, 8 bucks. So after shopping wanted to watch movie but got no spaces so went to the new mall nearby and wow, it is nice! There got a cinema theatre by a new company and is big! Went to play arcade instead and then went home.

ok..got a plan but dunno whether it will work. Prays!

First to reach class today and it was like a few mins only. Even the lecturer have nt reach yet too. Then had lunch with Mr joshua after so long. So chatted and went to econs. Was like dozing off during tutorial and played dota during the lecture with kaiyang, jiaming n clark. lols.

Went to see mr long abt class and manage to understand dbs better liao. Suppose to go NP Strings but like so late liao so nvr go. Had our first BCEIS meeting instead and sort of sorted out the positions of most ppl. By the way, the name is officially confirm as Business Common Engineering Informatics Society! Excited to be part of the setup and hope it will be happening and fun! Then wait for those MDES to finish before going Al ahzar to eat and chat. Had alot of fun talking abt childhood stuffs. Then suppose to go beauty world there buy ice cream and slack play truth n truth but bought ice cream and slack like afew mins before all go home..sad..

So whats now...What to do about it? Gimme some clues!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS YANG!

Had a nervous morning. Went to class wondering how the quiz gonna be like. Upon seeing it was like, erm erm how to do. Tried my best and hopefully i pass or score well perhaps. So lunch went to SIM magabites with michael n kong hock accompanying us for the first time. Showed them around some parts of ngee ann which they nvr been before. Nw they know where else got good food! After lessons went to clubhouse help out abit and blast music thru the speakers, played a short dota game with bonic n jiaming..lol.

Rushed off to canteen 1 upon huiping call and was preparing everything. Cant imagine the number of ppl who were there celebrating nicholas birthday! There were like 30+ ppl la. It was quite a success planned by sushan and very touching.

Wonder how my bday will be like??? hmmm..

Had my IS class today and started to get into grps to have our project going. So is rather time for work. The lesson today was rather interesting. Its more abt the expressions of a person and the eye contact stuff. Then is about how one express themselves during an conversation. Quite useful regarding today topic.

Then as usual met up with the rest at blk 51 and bought the concert tix. Went to makan place to tapao down but i didn eat lunch as my stomach isnt feeling gd. So slack around for a while before going off to sports hall play table tennis with ky, huiping, jasmine n jiaming. Had fun cos like hw many years nvr play liao. Then went bak to 51 to slack around until go eat kfc for dinner.

Regarding something i want to say, love is not about giving or taking and expect the other person to return it. Is more on the feelings. Have u ever wonder what he/she feels towards u? Have u ever consider what he/she wants right now? To be elaborated further on nxt post..

Feeling very confuse right now...

Every time start with 'today' like very boring eh...

so lessons as normal then went to makan place to eat. lucky got seats cos larry, lingli book for us tables ardy. Then chat until we late abit for lessons. Talking about lessons is making me sleepy right now. So ended lessons and went to meet up with the gang for some gyming n jogging. Jogged 12 rounds around the track and whenever i pass by those who are not running, got cheers from them and i feel so embarrass, at the same time laughing, disturbing my tempo. After that, gym for 1hr like that before bathing and go makan.

Finally can go eat at mac after virtually everyday eating at the market. Then saw joanna as she went eating with her volleyball friends at mac too. Dont seem to feel tired today but rather ok. No motivation to do anyting... ):

Taking action now or later?

Today a bad start to the day. Woke up saw that the weather is going to be bad then started to rain heavily! So no choice but to go to interchange take 52. Then at IMM there, a taxi broke down so slowed the whole freaking traffic which ardy jam as usual. Then same thing every morning, the nan hua primary there jam. Reach clementi then another break down, this time is the Ngee Ann shuttle bus!lols. So reach sch around 8.30am...so late sia. Then makan wif 02 at canteen 4 and off for lesson.

Finish sch at 3pm at went to played basketball until 7plus. Then makan at market there before going home.

The feeling just get deeper and deeper and i cant seem to pull myself out now.

Today was interesting! Woke up around 10am and prepare myself for my first driving lesson at 11.30am at clementi. So upon reaching there, introducing myself and all the registration stuff, it was off to my first touch on the wheel. Initially i was very nervous, listening to all the instructions and had some few stalls and stunning moments but overall it was fun and a cool experience. Look forward to future lessons and cant wait to pass my driving test maybe in a few mths time!

Without u, life feel so lifeless
my whole surrounding feel so dull without u.
So whats holding me back?
Whats preventing me from taking it further?
How u feel towards me?
Is all this fate? Is all this destiny?
Just cant forget u.
A day not hearing u seems so weird, like there is something missing inside me.

Waiting for your eyes to meet mine,
to tell that we love each other.
Everything will be right when u are by my side,
seeing paradise,
whenever u are.

Woke up early today then meet clark, nicholas, huiping, kaiyang, eugene, kevin, larry, sushan and jiaming for lunch before going to NP strings. We damn high la, make alot of noise in the LT then play some games before registering. So is all of us, fri 5.30pm class!

Then went to alumni there wanted to sing but the halo bar not open yet so went to makan at the pines cafe and chit chat before going home. Me, larry n clark accompany huiping to her house there before taking bus back home.

So what is it now..hmmm..

Thurs 30/4/09

Came to sch rather early cos scared 9am lesson will reach damn late due to traffic jam and it was raining! So went for EM3B class and was damn blur throughout the lesson! Jialat, need help liao. Went for CA later and my interest in physics grew more. The lecturer ringtone was also very funny, some alien music! haha. Meet up with some of the pinata's for lunch before going for PMR.

PMR was so fun! creating the 3D object thru the computer. Then 1 hr break suppose to do SE but nvr do then went for the makeup econs class before go bak find siyao, meng n zal do the SE quizzes. Suppose to go gym with ky, gloria etc but lazy ah. So at night went to swim and wow, can swim all the way non-stop! After recovery from illness can swim like that, zai. Then makan with chun, steve they all and chit chat, play some stupid games before going home.

Finally can have proper rest and best of all, I UPLOADED THE VIDEO DIRECTLY TO FACEBOOK! At last! Expected to receive many comments and i will like to say, without everyone of you, there wouldnt be a pinata or even a pmc. Thks for all the memories!

Fri 1/5/09

Woke up late today and spend my whole afternoon doing hmwk, watch tv, play games...boring... Hope for some excitment into my life! Misses camps!

So does feelings develop easily? hmm...